Burning forever in searing heat.
Black flesh peeling off white bones.
Screaming, screaming forever in agony,
With none to wet the tip of my tongue.

Clad in peaceful, shining white
Singing, forever singing to God.
Forgotten those not here among them.
Or not allowed to remember...

This may be my last post here.
I'm not too sure yet.
Will get some wise peoples advice.

Sliding into apathy
Dying in captivity...
But he can help.

Rain

When the rain falls
Who will be inside
And who will stand out
To taste it?

"No I can't."

"Give it a go."

"I cant explain."

"Just try."

"I cant, it's too hard.
Tell you what.
Step inside my head,
Take a look around
And tell me what you find.
Turn left, and make two rights.
Push through the black veil
It wont be easy, but
You can do it.

"Head past the guilt
And shame
And onward to the end.
Not far now.

"Break through the secrets
And the evil intent
Break through the lies
And hidden pain.

"And there will you find it,
That 'amazing prize' that
You want so badly.
Bitter disappointment,
The finding is no joy
Or glory."

Sorry. I still cant explain.

Because I was determined not to be sucked in by myself or any other person into restarting my blog, I add with a bit of shame these new few poems. I couldn't help it. I HAVE to write poetry. I can't live without it. It's posting it that may make me guilty. Anyway, here we are.

Yeah, this one wasn't so good either...
So I biffed it too.

These are all the thoughts in my head right now...
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Yea i no. Busy huh? My brain is mush.

My own room
Has my own things
With my own pictures
And my own door
And I can choose who
Walks through my own door.

My own room
Has my own space
And my own desk
And my own draws...

And many thanks to you oh Esther, for taking that away from me.

What happens
When we go
And leave behind us
The tears and fears
Of this world?

Where do we go?

Is there The Man
Sitting and ready?
Or are we just left
To slumber in the dust
And never awake,
The soil that covers us
Never to be moved?

What will The Man say?
What will He do?
Will we go
On His right or on His left?
A sheep or a goat?

All these questions
That cant
And wont be answered,
By all except the one who knows.

Ask him nicely,
For Time will tell.

If You are there
And if You do care,
Then why cant I share
This faith in You?

But I'm in this mess
And You couldn't care less
While others You'll bless,
You'll watch and not care.

I want to serve You,
To beleive that You're true,
So my faith please renew,
Because all else seems pointless.

I hope he's coming
Just so I can say hi.
But I hope he stays home
So I cant stuff it up.

Bound and tied to the tracks
Train thundering closer
Seeming to pick up speed
As it gets nearer.

Nowhere to go,
Nowhere to run.
You're stuck with you
And your dying wish,
But no one will listen.

Cry of desperation,
Scream of despair.
You'll take it all back
If they let you go.

But it's too late.

The sound of an iron bar
Hitting a wet side of meat.

You're divided in two,
Half being dragged
Half left behind.

Scarlet life clots
And death grows strong.

And it's too late.

Wild gallop
Lost control
Swerve, and I
Loose my stirrups.

Hanging off one side
Cumbersome and heavy.
She bucks to be free
Then I smack turf.

If you fall off, get right back on.

One last ally
That stands tall.
I know I cant keep him,
He's gonna fall.

And untill then
I thank you friend
Though it would have been nice
To keep you till the end.