It hurts to know
You're O.K. without me

Farewell

Riding on the back
Of your perfect farewell.

I am sad.

Everyone is scared to Death
Of Dying.

There's no woman here
No lady behind this head,
Just a little girl, silent and lost
And too scared to leave her bed.

Where were you
When I needed you most
You ran away
And told me
Its all for my own good.

It seems to me
When everything is fine and dandy
You hang round my head
Then blame me
For not running to you.

Don't call me daughter, sister, friend
I'm not your bastard child
I have a Father already
And two would be just weird.

I lost God
Under my bed.

He's hiding behind the box
Of unopened maps, cigarette butts
And a broken down heart

Too scared to be coaxed out
He's getting smaller, quieter now
He hardly wakes me up anymore

I don't wonder if He made the sky
I don't wonder if He'll hurt me
I don't wonder if I'm in His Book
I don't wonder, I know

It's all a goddamn lie.

Dad

Words
Hitting the back of the skull
So many words
Just one little night
Puts a damper on life

Words
Depression untraced
Behind the lies
And broken skies
Chemical offset mind

Words
Mean nothing
Softly cracked ice
Gently stroked eyes
Gently stroked eyes.

I told him I didn't love him.
And for the first time, he believed me.
I told him I didn't love him,
And for the first time, I meant it.

"I would give anything
To make you better."

OscarTown - Day 1

Well, oscar has officailly joined the throng. He's a part of the sethsterbi tribe. He's not too keen on it though, which is unfortunate, becasue he's not going home anytime soon.

They had left.
She felt a little lost without them.
But no matter, they were gone.
She lit another cigerette
And quietly got headrush.

They wouldnt be back for a while.
She walked to the end of the road.
Everything was wet.
Her feet were cold
Even encased in he silly fluffy slippers.

She could feel the streets stones
Through the hole in her left shoe
She'd worn it down from climbing through her window.
But that was then.
Now she could walk without worry.

And so she walked.
Towards her new home.
She took another puff of her forgotten ciggerette
and flicked it away.

Gone already.
For some reason she stopped at the gate.
That sign, for sale. For sale.
It would be gone soon
But not for now.

She entered the house and sat down.
Bored and lonely.
Mssing the cat winding around her feet.
Soon. Soon she vowed.

She sat on her damp blanket,
And typed this up.

Secret

Only I can see you
Hold your hand
Touch your face
Can I learn to
Share?

Shut in
Blocked out
Forgotten what
She's on about

You knocked me out
Left me for dead
And took everything
I didn't have

Your claim
Glows blue
Phoned in
Fake you.

Liar, Liar
Heart on fire
Hope all gone
What will you do?

Sad truth
Worlds die
Time stops
Those lies

Liar, Liar
Soul on fire
Hope is gone
What will you do?

Your you
Fall away
Hold on boy,
One day, one day

I'll have enough,
Enough to give more.

Liar, Liar
Shame and fire
Hope not yet gone
What will you do?